SILENCE

The silent night covers over me
There is not light except this screen
I crave the quiet and the peace
That this room often brings me

Writing in the night I find my way
Where I'm going not sure to say
A place with quiet and easy existence
With old quilts and wooden pieces
A life where I can feel at rest
With the world in all it's best
Say hello Joe, Say hello Mary
A woman of nite quite contrary

I wish wore a flowing skirt
Cotton panties and old work shirt
Lots of flowers and a stream
A soft flowing radio
A front porch screen

A woman of nite could hear the crickets
Write her poems
Feed the chickens
Rock on the porch to slow flowing songs
This is a life that could go on

I close my eyes and feel the breeze
Smell the flowers
Feeling free
Would you like to touch my rose petal skin?
I don't ask for much from within

Rocking back and forth I feel you breath
Of course this being a dream I'm already relaxed and wet
Holding your hand and lying my head in your lap
Running your fingers, knowing me like map

Silence...

I can hear this life
Would you like to take me there?
Maybe for a night?
I'd watch the stars and shine so bright
Writing and writing I try as I might
To be this woman of delight

Close your eyes and join me there
Quiet solitude
Cool night air
Remove your clothes
Very slow
Down on your knees
Hold me close
Feel me up
Feel me down

Open the windows and let the wind blow through
Take off my clothes and I will come join you
Quietly take me bed
Hold me close naked and content

The Eat Me Beat Me Lady

The Eat Me Beat Me Lady is at it again
Pump up the Volume is in my head
Christian Slater on the Mike
Makes me stay up late at night

The Eat Me Beat Me Lady speaks the truth
Of love and hate and pure sexual youth
Talk hard
Talk truth
Inspires me so
The Eat Me Beat Me Lady uses red envelopes

Color me Red, Color me Hot
I write poetry where others just talk
In my zone I am alone
With no one else but Slater and his Microphone

How do words make you feel so alive?
Wanting me, making me, push the line?
All I feel is my heart pounding fast
Talk hard and talk fast

The Eat Me Beat Me Lady is not who I am
She is a sham
Where I am…
Not.

I will regale you with tales of solitude
I will regale you with songs of struggle
I will regale you with lines of lust
I will regale you if I must

Do you believe in the words that I write?
If you saw me in Starbucks would you find me alright?
If I had red envelope would all be okay?
Or would confuse me with the Eat Me Beat Me Lady again?

Talk Hard
Talk Fast
Check out my ass...etes
I am a woman of pride and perception
Fond of Jane Austin
I move in different directions

Literate
Educated
Well Traveled
And Smart
If that is my description
Where is my heart?

For it pumps and beats sometimes so fast
This heart that is made of glass

The Eat Me Beat Me Lady is at it again
Shouting out loud and pumping my brain
I relish in her ability with words
Hold on a second…
Where is my worth?

The Eat Me Beat Me Lady is in my hands
Writing these words as fast as I can.

Welcome to the Jungle

Welcome to the jungle
It’s hot inside
Come open up for I have a surprise

Your young you're hot and neither am I
But when you turn out the light I’m gonna make you cry
Cry from pleasure feel no pain
This ghost will make you feel insane

I take my hand and reach for you
Making you feel like a woman should
Cry my name and I’ll cum again
Drink you in till you feel the same

Look at you all shiny and hot
I make love to you like it or not
I will bring to the edge so you can’t come down
Losing your breath never to be found

What do you know of techniques that I have?
Only what you believe that you think you have had
My experience slim but a gold metal star
I am your general on the brink of a war

I will guide you and move you and mold you so fine
You will never have felt more hot and alive
I will fuck you and fuck you and fuck you again
Forget about work you will never want to leave your bed

What do you want?
What do you want?
Tell me and I will help you along

What do you see?
What do you smell?
Nothing but passion and wet as well

Where shall I take you?
What would you like?
Down on my knees your pleasure takes flight

Can you adore me?
Think with your hands
Thrust them inside me I know that you can

Move to the left and move the right
Now you’re inside me and I am so tight
What do make of this lady so far?
Not what’s expected from a white woman right?

The moves and the moans till you curl up your toes
This woman’s no whore but leaves you wanting for more
Stay inside and you’ll be alright
Stay where it is warm and it’s tight

What do you say to once more around?
Hotter and wetter
Take my pants down

Woman on Top

Woman on top
Is hard to stop
Lets’ herself go in time with the be-bop

Woman on top has no fear
No scars, no pain, no weight to bare
Woman on top feels so fine
Touches herself deep inside

Woman on top is what I used to be
Hot and sexy
Sweet and kind
Now stuck with the second all the time

Woman on top is who I want to be
I remember feeling everything
Whether tied or free
Woman on top I was allowed to be

Escape no longer
Take positions in my mind
Everything’s allowed and that’s where I hide

No longer seen no longer known
I need to leave and go back home
Find one who wants me back
Find my way back on top

Do you see me for what I am?
There was a time where I had so many plans
IF I leave and find myself will you find me as someone else?
Hard to stay hard to leave
Woman on top dangles like a key

Live in the past, images of what once was
Waiting to be again
Disgusted in my own disguise
Mother fuckers I am a prize

Scream out loud Woman on Top
I lose my grip and slip a lot.
I hate you I hate you for what you’ve done
I was buried and I was done
Now I resurface sacred and afraid
What if I can never be the same?

Woman on top is a busy girl
Has no time for whirl and twirl
Woman on top what a waste
What I would do to again be a woman of haste

You Think It's Easy

You think that it’s easy
Me being me
Scraping for scraps of what I used to be

You think it’s easy being that girl
Used to be sexy
Now I'm just dirt

I am not even forty
Though I feel 55
Unwanted and unused for any recent length of time

You think that it’s easy
To watch you move
What I would do
Just to kiss you

I once was so wanted
So needed
So alive
But now here I am cast aside
Feeling so empty yet loved all the same
What I would do to go back again

Back to the place where I felt so alive
Sexy and vibrant and 25
Wanted and needed by so many it’s true
Now a size 16 and it’s over I’m through

What I have gone through to live for each day
I pray and I pray that someday I may
Feel like woman needed and held
For now I am living this terrible hell

Why do you love me and cast me aside
Is there another I fear deep inside?
Tell me I ask you tell me again
Why don’t you touch me?
Please let it end

Not ever a woman
I feel empty and spent
Like a popular video game that has come to an end

What I would do to feel wanted again
To feel warmth and fulfilled and not by my hand
What I would do to stop this pain so deep
Most of the nights I cannot even sleep

A nice and wonderful man that is what you are
But how long shall I go touching myself in the dark
Feeling alone and acting in secret
You bastard I hate you for being so depleted

No excuses no arguments when confronted
“Not sure why it is dear it’s not that I don’t love you!”
I hate you I hate you for letting my eyes wander past
The shadow of emptiness that you cast

If I break the vow then I am at fault
But how long can I woman go without?
Years that it’s been so lonely so hurt
Everyday feels like my face in the dirt

If I should stumble
If I should fall
Why should I be convicted?
After all it’s your fault

A woman of honor is what I try to be
An up standing mom and a daughter you see
Shame I do not want for my family to bare
But man are you pushing me and its really not fair!

Hope’s what I hold that you’ll come round and see
The beautiful woman that I want to be
Doubt it I do and I wonder what shall be
Maybe there is someone who still would want me

Day or Night

Day or night you come to me
Burns so deep that it blinds me
I see you, I feel you in my sleep
Forbidden fruit, so hard to eat

Feel me, Touch me, Hold me close
It’s hard to breath within these dreams
Dreams that come while I’m wide awake
I wonder if you ever feel the same

When I dress I touch myself
Thinking of you is becoming a personal hell
No idea if you know what I mean
Thinking of you I cum again

Touch me, Feel me, Hold me close
Most of the time I feel I’m a ghost
I talk to you but hear nothing you say
Wanting to touch you in a non-virgin way

When you go to bed do you think of me?
Always a first mover I tend not to be
I dream that you want me just as much
Holding back feelings till my whole body blush

Lick me, Kiss me, Go deep inside
Sometimes I worry that I cannot hide
A woman ignored dying for touch
How is it possible I want you so much?

I dream while awake that we meet somewhere hot
I take off my panties you rub me till raw
I gasp and I scream and I mean everything
The heat in me burning till I’m out of steam

Need me, Want me, Hold back no more
If you were the key I would be your door
Unlock me deep and talk dirty to me
Take me from behind I want to feel everything

You need not hold back
I am the bitch in the black
Undress me so slow
That it aches to my toes

Take me at will
I want to be thrilled
A woman denied
A woman who’s fell
Through the cracks, neglected
Feeling so oppressed
All I want is to see you undressed

Here I go fantasizing again
Blood rushing up to those places and then
I need to escape take a deep breath inside
There are even the times where I break down and cry

I need you, I want you, Please fill my void
Find me attractive and I will not avoid
Taking my clothes off, hiding the scars
Running deep they do, both inside and out

Kiss me, Kiss me, Hold me so tight
Make me feel like a woman tonight
Tell me you care and you think that it’s right
Let me be under you
While you take your time

Move me, Touch me, Push deep inside
Please let me share these feelings I hide

When I wake up
I know I have dreamed
Of you and me again in the sheets
Rolling and moving and speaking in tongues
Then I return to the reality that sucks

Please tell me it’s true when you look in my eyes
That you can see this poem
That I cannot hide
Reach for me and I will you
Until then a dream shall do