Coming Back?

I’m coming back…
I think…
Slowly coming up for air…
Not sure if I can breathe…
Too much pain up in here.

I’m still hiding
Jumping the light for the shadows
Can you see me?
Not at all
Not at all
See what ya want
Y’all are not in my hell

No sleep
No death
No where to fucking run
Hair’s not right
Body’s a fright
Where the hell am I?

But I don’t want to hurt anymore
Damn these tears just won’t flow
And when they do I am ashamed
Lord Jesus or whatever’s your name
Can’t find my game
And you know I wanna play
Why you do me like this?
Why you do me like this?

I am not your servant
I am not to blame
But I know you think that I will never be the same
Lost my game
Try again
Pick me up
Drop me back
Not even a cat has that many lives

I am strong I can beat it
I am soft just can’t be it no more
Why y’all won’t let me cry?
Why should I take it in stride?
When you do you’re a hero
When you don’t you complain
There is no comfortable medium
Y’all are insane
Can’t you see my pain?
Fuck you TG
Fuck you TW
Fuck you MS
Y’all are nothing but trouble
And if I had a dream
Dog if I had a dream….
It would be to go back and change everything
Starting from birth